Monday, April 24, 2017

Drive

You drive I'm assuming?

Your assumptions are correct, do you need me to pick you up?

No, but thank you.

You are welcome.

😝😝😝😝😝

Apparently, when asked if you drive, asking the asker if he needs to be picked up is not the appropriate response.

But I'm nothing if not a fast learner so.

Pss: Apparently I may be badly behaved

Sassy:  You have started acting like a Yoruba boy, what do you mean on a need to know basis?

me: exactly what that means. *shrug*

List 16: List your essentials

My essentials ( For travelling/riding around lagos/Just generally being) include

All my apple products: Ipod, Ipad and Iphone

My power bank

My bluetooth speakers

My passport and Yellow card

My black journal

My purple prayer journal

Mayyyybbeeeee my back up to my back up to my back up rabbit.

Wine glasses

My tokens

My coloring book

My car

Atm cards

And before anyone starts crying about how bible is not there goggle "You Version"
You are welcome.


Friday, April 21, 2017

Grown,Sexy and Adulting

I feel like I have grown so much in the last few months.

It is almost like never mind what it is like. but It is something I am so so so pleased about.

My girl passed her exams. And I'm just like girl I already told you I made a list and everything on that list is getting ticked off.

We ended up at latarvena with pitchers of Sangria and Pizza and Pasta and Asa.

Yes Asa, THE ASA.

It was such a precious evening. Why do people say things like you can't make friends in old age.

Yes your old friends know you. Love you and take your excesses. because lets face it its not after 15 years of my tardiness you want to start crying.

Anyway thankful for new friends that fall in line ( Yes my shiny creative that includes you).

Sexy. Jesus. I think

I'm not sure but I think my pheromones are working over time.

Either that or someone has put a " Fuck me"  sign board on my back and I can't seem to shake it.

It is literally raining men in my life.

For example, there is a trainer in my office from out of town who leaves today, so generally making conversation, I'm like oh why do you people never stay over the weekend to experience the city.

Him: so you would take me out.

Me: Yeah the office has a corporate card so shouldn't be a problem.

Him: I know girls like you

Me: Huh?

Him: I know myself and I can see a bit of myself in you.

Me: Oh. *mutters* Thats what he said. But I really said - is that so?

Him: Sounds awkward but we would be bad together is what I mean.

Me: Urm. okay I'm just going to get back to my desk because yeah.


My friend said I'm an expert placement strategist but that isn't true.
 I think men just like me and I smile.

And Adulting- Can someone just come and give me $10,000 just because I'm cute?

And I have developed a freaking expensive habit of buying art?

Yall know I like to buy things generally not news. But art is expensive AF.

Like I haven't even considered the garri I'm going to be drinking.

Plus it is actually the worst time because I'm going on holiday next monthhhh.

But now hayyyyy.

Pretty please?

Someone give me the $10k?


Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Run up- MAJOR LAZER

I love this song.

and now I love the video even more.

Basically stop texting when you go out AH. LOL


Never going to not not hit that
Your loving is drugs to me
And everytime you hit my phone
saying you need company

IMMA RUN UP ON YOU.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Enjoyment as a murder weapon: An advanced study of how Ore spent her Easter weekend


Posit: Can enjoyment kill you?



Data Analysis and Findings
Nails
One is broken so badly you know mercury has to be in retrograde.

Ipod
Also broke over the weekend.

Heart
Full and overflowing with love and happiness

Camera Roll
Instagram is going to get these Swipe posts like they are going out of fashion




So what did I get up to?
Actually the question should be what didn't I get up to.

Good Friday saw me at a burial, my aunt lost her mum and trusssssst Yoruba people to do the most and try to kill me with enjoyment. We finished from there and we moved to her house because her husband is from Delta and had to do an appreciation reception thing. ( so if you caught snippets of this on my insta stories that's what it was)

On Saturday morning I woke up unusually early and went to the stadium for a boxing session. I legit almost died. I have to do 10 incline runs and if anyone knows me in real life you'd know I'm not the one, especially on the Saturday after not working out for over 40 days.

Picked up the tickets for Gidifest courtesy AfricaMagic, I genuinely love Instagram give-aways.

Because Mercury is in retrograde, I sent my car to my mechanic to fix my lights and came back with the worst jerking I have experienced and my oil light on. Urm.

Anyway I went to another mechanic who sorted it out so I got a cab back home and slept. Eventually car came back and I got ready to hit the streets.

Got in at say past 9 ish but the love of my life ( Diplo) was headlining the show so I waited in the rain through to 3am when he came on.
 And he was amazingggggggggggg. Walshy fire came as well.

Ps: Walshy if you read this- you need to make sure your tonight mix is straight fire.

This is the part where I actually post photos but abeg.

Just take my word for it. Ain't no party like a Lagos party.

Side bar: Diplo is so fucking hot. I was so so close to actually licking his face in the elevator, but I settled for a video for my insta stories.

But I still tweeted at him offering him breakfast.

Sunday I woke up with the most delicious bout of menstrual cramps- Yes my diet has been shit but e no reach that side.

Sha woke up and faced all my events that sunday which included my friends baby dedication which was really precious,  then went to help my friend Ms beefab at her stall, went to dinner with my friends to celebrate the Man-U win and ended up at some random games night thingy.

Ps: I am so competitive. Gosh. not a bad thing , just saying.

Monday I go to the beach with my friend,s have such an amazing time and I head back home to shower get dressed and attend the after party for Gidifest.

Two things happened- Made a Vanilla Oreo Swirl with Diplo and the second thing does not concern anyone that was not there.

Tuesday

I wake up at 8am and I'm late to work, but what is new?

Conclusion:
 Issa No, enjoyment can infact not kill you because why the hell am I still at work?                    

Ore 100- 0 Enjoyment

If you think I'm playing ask Diplo.

Bonus:
Soundcloud playlist for how this weekend really went.

Ps: Major Lazer has some FIRE mixes of Nigerian songs. My lord. Fire. I. Can.Not. Wait.


List 15: List your dream trips

LOL.

Okay universe. I hear you.

Last week monday I actually put up a bunch of cities and sites I want to visit and see.

Top of the list is Iceland. I had always seen the northern lights in like photos and windows screen savers and to find out that that really exists and wow.

Then my uncle told me he was on a Norwegian cruise, and he saw the lights and I'm now dying of envy.

I'm over feeling envious and I'm now making/taking concrete steps to go to places I wanna go.

Second on the list is Turkey.
I did a transit from istanbul to Liban when I went there last year and if the duty free spread is anything to go by then I need to go into the city and see for myself.
I'm also obsessed with the fact that it straddles Asia and Europe because I'm a sucker for killing all the birds with one stone.
Plus I vaguely remember the scene with the underwater cisterns in that from Russia with love and most importantly- Turkish Hammam bath.

Third is Burning man.
Again in Lebanon I met a Nigerian Indian girl who had a photo from burning man as her screen saver. So I asked her what that was about- Mind blown.

Still struggling with the burning effigy parts because Christian and it sounds a lot like the Israelite roaming the wilderness on the way to milk and honey ( and speaking of milk and honey see my next post please).

But she said it changed her life and y'all know that now my life is all about changing so after a bit of reading up I think it is something I am super super interested in.
Just need to make sure that it doesn't coincide with my period dates.


Fourth and probably the longest back story. Cuba.

Reason 1- Before Americans go and scatter the whole place.

I had no idea how to get there till Jayla flew threw toronto and Chinny flew via iberia - Ps they don't fly out of Nigeria anymore.

But before this I had read and seen photos from a trip Diplo took from miami and it was all very covert with a charter plane and no internet in Cuba but I saw the photos of the crowd and the partying.

Then Jayla& Chinny went and I was like nahhhhhhhhhh I need these cubano's in my life.
And I'm outside a lot so I think a week away from everything will work.
So Cuba lets talk.

Honorable mentions.

Serengeti.
I have these visions of me in a tub in a luxury camp tent being fed seedless grapes by the most delicious half naked man and just generally having the time of my life.
Which is strange because- Which one is camping in the matter again?
I do not even like animals like that. But visions are visions are visions.

Capetown.
I love Capetown. The mother city is beautiful. My company was beautiful.

I think I am due a solo trip. re:2014 Greece.



Thursday, April 13, 2017

And so it begins- Travel Blogger (eek)

I opened/started/commenced/began the journey of a travel blog.

It's something I have been wanting to do for eons, because as y'all know I LOVE to travel

and also because I realized it might be my only shot to get flysaa to put me on their west africa meets south africa all expense paid tour thingy- what? I'm honest.


Anyway here it is * Travel blog Link* , please go on there and show some love love love.

Also show it to the SAA people.

I'm thinking of doing four post a month schedule and take it from there.

I am really really really excited about this.


If you can't tell.

ALSO 4 DAY WEEKENDS LIKE- UHN HUH UH HUNNNNNN.

So flipping excited.

Plus I get to see Diplo this weekend.

and Maybe one beach trip

and hopefully pool side chilling the rest of monday.

Still undecided about how I feel: re a solid friday night out.

I mean I know I need one. but I'm just a bit meh about it. (for now).

Ps: I think I have to start working on my flakeeeey attitude.

Pss: Yeah nah.


Sunday, April 9, 2017

List 14: List the way you can cleanse your life for Spring

- Develop a new action plan for my career

- Fear nothing

- Do all things you want to do afraid

- Lean into my mistakes.

- Let go of toxic relationships

- Cultivate and grow new relationships

-Find a reliable gel polish nail guy who won't fleece me and would do a decent job

- Read more.

- Write more.

- Trust your gut instincts more.

-Learn to rely on your gut instincts.

- Be quick to listen and slower to speak

- Find a way to get Asa and Gidifest concert tickets for free.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Dear Nigerian Men

You need to let it go.

Issa No from me.

But let Megan Trainor tell it:




If I want a man
then imma get a man
but it's not my priority.

Thanks & God bless.



Ps: I showed my friend my latest Asos haul, he looked at me at said,

later you will be saying :
"I do not know what soap I'm using to bath that these men won't leave me alone"

But for reallllllllllll.

I am yet to encounter  entities more persistent than Nigerian men. Jesus.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Repeated Chants for Today

Ore does not have a shopping problem.

She is growing the economy.

She is enjoying the fruit of her labor.

She really needs  wants a bodysuit even though she has never worn the one she currently owns.

She needs wants a beach cover up because she goes to the beach once a month.

Ore needs to stop buying things.

Because, why does she have a budget if she has no plans to stick to it.

See next post.

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Affirmations






They work.

I have been using the Godfessions book- not as much as I would like to because I am always late to work but enough to know that it has made a difference in my life.

And because of how much they work, I'm actually going to start insta-story-ing/ Snapchatting my favorite Godfession's daily.

"Nothing is difficult for me anymore, I enter into my season of ease".

And if that is not the story of my life.

Nothing is.

Ps: Now will be a really good time to hitch your wagon to my star.

Yorubae can testify.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Love's Divine


Don't bend
Don't break
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake



Too much free time and free internet at work and flash backs from random conversations had me youtube-ing the seal II album.

Meh.

What I love is this song.

And the video.

My Lord.

The Video.

List 13: List the things that always cheer you up

- SHOPPINGGGGGGGGG.
It is so strange, I am so fulfilled when I have bought things but I am now currently trying to declutter my life and closet so I am trying to buy less.

Ps- My ideal job would be personal shopper if I was half as stylish as I wished.

- Moscato.

Goes without saying. Who does Moscato/Rissato/Lambrusco NOT cheer up?

-Presents

Brown paper packages tied up in strings Gift items nicely wrapped always always always cheers me up.

- Awoof
Nothing like a ridiculous discount to make my heart leap in boundless joy and cheer me all the way up.

I love free things too.


Ps: Asos is currently doing a 50% sale, but I am on a no buy ban till lent ends.

Anyway

-Candid conversations
-Compliments
-Getting things done by my self ( Case in point, protecting my iphone cable with a spring from a ball point pen. A broken nail later and I'm all cheer-ed up.


Not List related.
But I had such a delicious weekend.
And the sun set on sunday was everything.
I am equal parts nervous and excited about the course I might be charting with all the spare time I have, but I'm doing it afraid. Lowkey.

Friday, March 31, 2017

Snatches of Perfection


*Random Musing Alert*

I keep having random flash backs a la Nollywood of a weekend I spent at T's.

He has just moved to London for work for 6 months and I  graciously offered to help him settle in.

No details.

But It was perfect.

I have been having a lot of perfect days and nights lately.

And while most have been spontaneous, they have one thing in common.

I was intensely present.

In the moments.

I have no other moments to tag to these perfect moments except the moments themselves.


I tend to do a lot of things at once, so it is rare that I am so immersed in a moment that all I have are memories of that moment.

And the memories are so vivid.

It is almost perfect all over again.

Two weekends ago, I spent the most delightful Sunday with my baby girl and we were at the beach.

And it was perfect.

I think a lot of my present-ness has to do with the lack of Twitter in my life?

So I am not constantly reaching for my phone to tell and share the perfection with my half a thousand followers.

I would be the first to admit- I may be sating my SM yearning via Instagram stories,

But even that, can't seem to hamper how vivid the flash backs are.

They are perfect.

And even though I may be tempting fate right now.

I am happy and I am in love with the perfection that is my life.

Dear Universe.

Thank you.

Keep up the good work.



Fall for you

I have somewhat become obsessedddddddd with love songs.

Lets blame Ed Sheeran. ( Yes, Lets).

Anyway after a more detailed google search of my new fave " Leela James"

I, and the current number on my itunes play count for this song, have decided that this is now my new best absolute fave.

For now


Offcourse.

AND THE PIANOOOOOOO.

You guys I am serious about my piano lessons now.

Pleaseeee  if anyone knows any tutor, send them my way.

Pretty please with two cherries on. the. top.

Anyway video.

Feels like I'm loosing control.
I'll take another step
if you catch me when I fall for you.


Also how has baby girl NOT. YET. BLOWN?

Shame.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Say that

Because I always have spare time these days,
I keep running well, not running
but being able to visit more people than I should

Anyway
That is how yesterday I was with my other rapper friend T, (not to be mistaken with my favorite Yoruba boy T, who is actually moving home in 2 weeks)


Anyway so we are sat in my car and my iPod is on shuffle and keeps playing the sort of stuff I like and listen to and he looks at me and says


 Your soul is so old.
 huh?
The sort of music you listen to has me thinking you are 33-34.

*slight chuckle*

Find a video of one of the things I now currently enjoy.

Say That.


Got me thinkin' bout I do
To you I always would be true
and I know you feel it too.


Yall know I can't be bothered about comments but my girl Wendlyn who writes the most stunning stunning beautiful blog here left me the most delicious comment.

It is such high praise.

Thank you.

Honorable mention,

To the people who reach out to ask me if I am okay- despite how awkward the conversation might degenerate to- Thank you soooo much. For your concern. Hopefully it is from a good place.

And yes, I am Okay*.
Trying my best and finding that Enjoyment can really not kill you.

* Okay is relative. 

But I will be fine.




Sunday, March 26, 2017

List 12: List your best qualities

Because I am unrepentant about how much I hype and gas myself, I decided to ask a few people who I spend time with and I would say are my friends and know the real me to a certain degree " what are my best qualities?"

No names because I do not have power to separate fight

Meh.

Names included.
Comments in italics are mine.

Sassy: Your ability to infiltrate any gathering and draw people to yourself effortlessly (as chairlady bad bishes and head honcho Pretty Gang) and your organizational skills

Bunny: You do everything with zeal and gusto (asides go to work obviously),
You are kind and generous,
You love hard and deep ( I doooo, I do not know if this is a quality sha) and
you are loyal.

Princess:  Err. Resilience. Qualities as in?

Sbaby: Resilience & Resourcefulness

CEO: Ha you have plenty ( but she somehow managed not to list any)
Update: Strong willed and  grounded

M: Keeping in touch ( which is really good to know since I am rather flaky)

Singer: You are very good at encouraging people

Local Rapper: Your happy vibes and your ability to ginger enjoyment ( Yes that would be me)

Creative: Having a laugh ( Oookay- whatever this means)

Hajiya Savage 1: Very resourceful, tenacious, kind and intelligent (wipes tear)

I also posted the question on snap chat

The graffiti artist : Your ability to think very fast

The married man: Enjoyment

MA: Speaking hard truths right from Jss1 ( I find it strange I have friends from over 15 years ago and I also love it- means I'm not THAT bad a person)

Happiness: Go-getter (some people would say I am predatory), resourceful, Smart,
 Brings people together (Perhaps the time has come to form a political party?),
Strong (meh )


Common denominators include

- Resilience
-Resourcefulness
-Kind?
-Enjoyment Ministress

I would like to add to this list even though NO ONE thought to mention it.

I am badass at money management no really I have a guy on the DL for everything.
and if I find that my guy can't do it. I find a guy of my guy.

Basically I'm a really good fixer for cheap too.

and I do not know if this is a good quality but people like me. A Lot.







Saturday, March 25, 2017

Honesty Hour

I am overwhelmed with how much gratitude I have coursing through my body at this very moment
I am truly thankful for my life and how it is panning out.
Which is strange because
I hate when things do not go my way-BUT
2017 has shown me that there is a better plan
A master plan if you will
that has the good days and the bad days working towards 
fulfilling the plan.
So I got out of the driver's seat and I have been so overcome
by how easily it is all coming to me.


When I moved back home, my mother (bless her) told me that the things she struggled
the hardest for, job changes, relationships whatever never worked out because
there was always something better around the corner. 
She said
" It would be a good lesson to learn at this point in your life"
But I'm a go-getter with a one track mind.
You can't lead the person with the map girl-
get in formation.


I have spent the first quarter of 2017 getting in formation
and goodness me.
I am overwhelmed
And if you read my blog/ follow me on S/M
you'd know my life is pretty decent by all standards
So imagine it now.
Unto him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above
ALL that we think or ask or imagine or fantasize or daydream of

I am grateful for 
the big things- My Job, My Holiday, My Family, Lent
for the small things- how amazing yesterday was
for the things in between- Things that can not be written but Lord,
last night was amazing.

It is always the randomest things that set off the flame of hindsight and you are just out here connecting the dots like you are an astronomer and the tarantula nebula is in your path.

Be anxious for nothing
the person that holds the map and has charted the course of your life
see's the whole photo
is able to do immeasurably more than you can imagine.
And that should be enough confidence for you.
It's turning out to be enough for me.


Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Rude, Beauty & the Beast and Grace being unmerited favor.


So I'm sat with my new shiny creative and they say,

You are actually rude you know? But I really over look it because I know it is not malicious, you are just badly behaved.

*cackles* You are getting there, we would be really really good friends and you sound like all my friends.

They really enable your bad behavior

You are part of the "they" now.

Maybe.

Maybe.


I saw beauty and the beast yesterday asides the fact that- the person that was cast as Belle had a British accent (because to Hollywood Europe is one country)- the movie was perfect.

And if this is the line Disney wants to tow re: cartoon to live motion adaptations they need to do Aladdin next.


Also slight petition for GDC to steal the crepe guy from Silverbird? Please?

Ps: Asides praying where do you go for advice?

Pss: I keep getting really interesting requests to do things. It's scary that you people have so much faith in me.

Psss: I'm back to going late to work. It was only that one day I managed to come early last week- Big Fat Shame.

Pssss: My uncle is in town and lorrrrd I swear we have all the really difficult conversations I can't seem to have with anyone else, plus he constantly encourages me to take the high road and be a better person and he reminds me that grace is unmerited favor.

I think during lunch this week I'm going to tell him how satisfying the low road is,

I mean it's pretty crowded but there is so much fun to be had!

I love it.

Psssss; If  you are a male fitness enthusiast, message me abeg. Lets sculpt my body. I'm ready now.

Monday, March 20, 2017

Dear Universe


I mean its lent.
But yeah.
Everything.

Also want need to meet new people who do not marvel at how intelligent I am.

Ps: Does this mean people think I am a ditzy blonde?
Pss: I think I have love life down to a science

I had such a delightful weekend, I spent the whole Saturday with my mum and I ended up picking out and framing some art, I think I want to give out some art as presents.

I think I would start this week.

Sunday was reallllly perfect.

Teeto says my life looks like a vacation and I'm the ultimate baby boy.

I'm like hmnnn. you people do not even try to look behind the scenes. 

Also I swear I must have been very good because there is a new James Blunt album that doesn't come out till the 24th.

A cursory google search will tell you the name and other details so go and look it up.

My current fave song is " Don't give me those eyes". 

Last night my iPod randomly shuffled onto "you are beautiful" and I was like ahn ahn, won't we get any more music from him and today while suffering from weekend withdrawal and a random cold that I only seem to get when I come to work, I see he has a new album like YASSSSSSSSS.



List 11: All the ways you can rejuvenate your space

1  De-clutter
2 Give out clothes you haven't worn in 12 months
3 Give out clothes period
4 Stop buying clothes
5 Give our more things
6 Empty your bedside closet
7 Put everything on the side table INSIDE the drawers
8 Clear the actual dressing table
9 Drink more tea at night
10 Drink more tea
11 Put brandy in your tea.

Alternatively I can and probably should:

1 Invite Chioma over to your house more
2 Give her wine so she can help you

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Perceptions, Inception and Deception

Sooooooo

I usually do not care but yesterday I was telling someone how I went to the maket and entered Keke and okada and he was like

*scratch pause* you did what?

Me: went to the market

Him: no not that the other stuff

Me: What other stuff?

Him: the one when you entered keke?

Me: The sun set is so pretty tonight.

I swear I'm fake bougie. If you can even say I am bougie.

I meannnn, I like the finer things (who doesn't?) but I have lived long enough to know that

obtaining the finer things take time, money and these are things I generally haven't lived long enough for and I can't afford.

I mean before I gave up twitter I already mentioned that I planned to buy myself my first Chanel purse to celebrate my 30th and my first child's birthday.

Asides the fact I have re-evaluated the child benchmark; the exchange rate adjusted for inflation with my salary means I have to shift it to 35.

I'm not beating myself up over it.

I agree that I enjoy to be pampered. I like to pamper the people in my life, today my friend said

" You probably make everyone's life easier"

And I think that because I'm one of those " To know me is to love me people", the perceptions that people have do not bother me too much.

But I feel like maybe because I do not wear struggle well, people assume that struggle doesn't exsist or was not a formative part of my life.

It's odd because I don't have those assumptions about me.

I can not even believe that someone will use the term "Spoilt" to describe me.


via GIPHY


Yesterday I decided to stop complaining about my new job.

And today I came in at 8:30. Resumption time is 8am and I usually do a 9:20 ish average arrival time.


Change is here.


Monday, March 13, 2017

List 10: Things I should Ignore

-The voice in my head suggesting, goading and just generally encouraging me to morph into a full Lagos boy and fuck this, my new shiny sparkly friendship with a creative that fascinates me to no end, all the way up.



Never Change

I do not think human beings ever change.

I mean I know God can change a person, but for the most part we remain the same.

Case in point, me.

I came across my JS3 year book and I read the introduction that I wrote about myself, and let me tell you guys, it is probably the same thing I would write about myself today.

Features my really bad hand writing with a bit of french and just be generally washing my self like there is no tomorrow.

Also- I had a crush on Aj from Back street boys so if anyone knows where he is or where to find him, please point me in that direction.

Finally in the introduction, I stated how my best friend would fill out the page opposite. 

If you guessed the page opposite was empty, You are correct, pass Go and collect $200.

Friendship is still slightly sketch for me.

I have a love hate soul mate with my current "best friends" bordering on acceptablity of how good and bad I am simultaneously. 

Alsooooo, I meet people now, 15 years later and what they say about me is the same thing my class mates/dorm girls/friends from when I was 13 wrote in that book.

You are nice, annoying, keep being cool. Some spirnkles of you are nasty peppered with I hope we remain friends.

Just seems so odd.

Although people who meet me now, add generous to that mix.

I think I have mastered the art of giving because, I came across this and just realized that really the bible is ready for all of us.


 For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?

1 Cor 4:7
I mean, I have a wide range of abilities and I am able to make people's lives better, for a long time I may have felt like I was the shit but look at the bible, like baby girl, you ain't shit. You didn't do it on your own. You received the gift from God quit playin'. And quit frontin' like you figured it out all on your own.


How apt is this bible verse.

Very apt.

Quick shout out to my girl who helped me fix my room. I appreciate it so so much.

I mean I could have done it but abeg.

Maybe the people who say I am a diva know what they are speaking about.




Friday, March 10, 2017

In a bid to stop crying so much,

I wore eyeliner today.

It hurts/stings so much when you get teary eyed end it enters your eyes.

Still constantly listening to the Divide Album. It is so perfect.

Side bar: you guys need to go and listen to it and tell me your favorite songs.

Mine are currently: Castle on the hill, Dive, Perfect, Hearts do not break around here, Supermarket flowers and Save myself.

I know I know.

But Perfect is literally the most perfect song.

So I opened a new Instagram account and guess what? it has the multiple thingy/ Did someone report me to instagram?

My friends and I try to have dinner once a month but today if we get around to going it would mean that I would have to sit and wait for roughly 40 mins waiting for my party.

Not a problem.

Except for some reason now, there is a neon beam on my fore head. I can literally not go anywhere.

Toasters. Oh Lord.

Are you okay-ers.

Can I join you-ers. ( Always no)
May I join you-ers ( Maybe)

Why is a pretty girl like you sitting alone.

TIRED.  And I'm not even team yellow bone.


Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Dear Instagram, International Women's Day and other stories

This shit has to stop.
For real.

I still cant post multiples on Instagram after,

Updating
Deleting said app
Re downloading said app
Deleting it from I tunes
Signing into my friends phone
Nothing works.
Listen Instagram, Facebook Mark Zukerberg:
 I. Want. To. Pepper. Them.
At my wits end help.

International women's day quote remains the same from last year

God made man, then he had a better idea.

Other stories

I'm having lots and lots and lots of conversations about myself with the people who know me and I realize how badly behaved I am.

And even worse, how little it bothers me.

How someone be so badly behaved and casually unbothered at the same time?

So unbothered it hurts me on some plain, but in real life I do not care, and I know this is true because I am so one track mind if I wanted to change something I'd put my back into it.

Someone asked me if I was a last child today, I said yes- I come from a long line of last children.

#PatentedPampering

She was slightly confused.

Are middle children not supposed to be happy happy happy?

I am wearing the most delicious dress to work today and to be honest if I do not get a query about it then I might just be home Re: work place structure.

Said dress is so inappropriate.

Co-worker said I'm mysterious. too many layers to me.

I said we are the sum of our experiences and I am very very very experienced. *insert raised eye brow here*

Someone else said he thinks girls like me are dangerous.

#Triggered because, I am nothing if not kind and gentle and all antonyms of dangerous.

Okay maybe slightly.

I'm finding myself in lots of difficult conversations about women, and I am thankful everyday that my life is pretty good example of myth debunking.

My Kamokini swimsuit makes me a swan.

Ps: Still constantly listening to the Divide Album.
And my heart. please.

Pss: Perfect is actually supposed to be my first dance song. A girl can dream, because all your dreams are valid.





Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Divide

I was not going to blog today but anyway since I'm here:

Currently listening to the Ed sheeran album "Divide" and I am thanking him on behalf of all the 2017 Nigerian brides for giving us newly minted first dance songs and retiring "Thinking out loud"


Totally adore the whole album- ADORE!

Potential faves: Perfect**. Dive. Save myself.

I do not even like Ed Sheeran because not my spec but I need someone to introduce him to me so I can tell him something.

And reminisce needs to leave because he has been over thrown.

Ed sheeran has my heart.

*Insert heart beating emoji*


** I took a crying break for this song. and i's going to be on repeat on my ipod today so If you see me in traffic bawling my eyes out. It's Ed's fault.

Monday, March 6, 2017

Hashtag blessed



I had the most delicious weekend.

It was a most deserved weekend away that I had encountered in a long time.

And I want to talk about all of it but as usual, I am a bit wary of how much I should be saying and in these last few days, months really I have been struggling with if I am over sharing, controlling narratives about me and just generally if there is TMI swirling around the vortex that is Lagos gist sewer about me

And I never worried about this ever.

Anyway, if you are on my snap, you know what I got up to.

I have no idea if I mentioned that I along with the usual suspects for lent I gave up Twitter.

If you follow me on Twitter, you would know that this is the real dying to flesh.

I had to, because I was constantly on there round the clock and even though I fostered enough amazing relationships on there, I needed to wean myself off.

Along with twitter I need to leave pettiness behind.

I'm struggling with this one, forgiveness is unusually difficult for me, usually you'd just be dead to me but now, I want to talk through the whole thing.
 I am trying to mend relationships/build new relationships.

I think i'm failing at this.
I give up too quickly.
My friend says things come too easily to me, and I get flustered when things do not.

I know a few people think this,  it is not true.

Categorically  untrue.

I saw a play on Saturday with my girl M and OMG it was soooo good.
She looked at me and said- You are shrinking. Are you okay?
Me: I should be an actress *shrug*

I need to actually learn how to swim.
because I'm ready to lock my hair and get my body right

Lately since the last thing I do before I sleep is pray and not tweet, I wake up with a song in my head .

Today's song  was a bit strange because I do not think I had heard it before, but the words were in my head. So a quick google search and boom:

*cue water works*


Death could not hold you down,
You are the risen King
and today You are seated in Majesty
You are the risen King.


I am thinking of going to Benin Republic for a weekend but in the usual manner of these things my plug connect has no trust in me.


Why did my nail guy vanish from the face of the earth and now I have got a regular mani and because of what I got up to over the weekend, I have chipped nails. FFS its Monday.

Who starts the week with slightly chipped nails.

Slight update: T is moving back to Lagos.

He had spoken about this thing for so so long that I can't actually believe he is coming home.

WHO WILL BUY ME DSW SHOES??!!!

I told him last night when I spoke to him that how will he deal with darkness. He said and I quote " I am willing to spend as much as I need to ensure there would be no darkness in my life" 

Me: yeah cool, lets revisit this in 6 months.

Both of us: Burst into laughter.
And to think he is coming a month earlier than we spoke about.

Anyway more Yoruba boys to fill my days and nights in Lagos.

I want to give more.

I'm worried I'm not giving enough.

Please if you feel it in your spirit that there is something I can help out with, it doesn't have to be to your benefit.

There are always people in need and I feel like I do not do enough and it eats at me.

Still giving away clothes because, no one needs this many clothes.

I just realized I have maybe 20 black dresses.

I plan to start wearing color.

Speaking of color, stumbled across the new beauty & the beast video with John L & Ariana  and OMG stunning.

Beauty & the Beast is one of my fave Disney cartoons so I really hope the IMAX shows it in 3d when it comes out, I mean IMAX isnt even showing LOGAN 3D?

anyways videoooo:



Barely even friends
then somebody bends- unexpectedly
Just a little change
small to say the least
both a little scared
neither one prepared
beauty & the beast.


Show me a more iconic love story? I'll wait.

I mean Belle is literally every Nigerian man's dream
Be a stunner and settle in to marry a man that was rude to a witch and got turned into a beast and is so damn rude to all his house staff.

Listen she is the one.

None the less. Can. not. wait. Ah!

Sunday, March 5, 2017

List 9: The things you treasure the most

I have about 3-4 journals that I wrote in diligently for almost 5 years. I read them now and laugh so much as how sitting on a boy's laps  and sipping from his bottle (totally unsanitary btw) at the club was something concrete to the effect of how serious our relationship was.

My journals are precious to me. I actually let a few people read them. makes them see me in a different light.

- My family.

-My ipod and ipad and maybe my speakers
I love my music and I love my books

My friends offcourse

But this list is difficult to collate primarily because I get tired of things easily.

Like I was so excited about owning a lava lamp and now it sits gathering dust at my bed side

But it aids sleep

Asides the relationships I have. I'm building and cultivating I do not think I have a lot of physical things I treasure.

I treasure long luxurious baths.

and friends who accept my flakiness.
What are you giving up for lent?

Oh you know, the usual- food, alcohol

Sex?

*laughter*

You can't quite give up what you do not have

*more laughter*

So what are you giving up for lent?

It's personal.

I respect that.

Friday, March 3, 2017

I'm trying to stop telling lies
and I'm trying to stop shopping

Why do people think I do not  do anything serious? A mutual friend of mine said she thought I worked for the government!

LOL.

I'm trying to go and get a pedicure and its just 11:51am. So maybe I can see why people would think I worked for the government.


Also my friends say i'm such a huge flirt.

This is crazy because I might be a slight misanthrope. 

I enjoy living in the moment, but when I get out of the moment, it has passed I'm not likely to call you or follow up or anything

And sometimes I realize I do not even like the people much.

I do not even know for me again.

Remember how maybe 3 posts ago I was missing my bath tub

I'll tell you on monday how I got to spend the weekend. most of it in this uber luxe lush establishment  and I just sat in the tub with my kindle reading and my favorite candle from miami 4 years ago.
 
No one should ask me why I have a candle from Miami from 4 years ago!

Also I'm trying to give more and use the things I keep for myself.

Ash really reminds you how you can't get out of life alive and you can't take anything with you anyway so.


Thursday, March 2, 2017

Ash Wednesday and old friends catch up

So after work yesterday I went to church to get some ash on my head and be reminded that
all of this is vanity
I can not take anything away
from dust I came
and from dust I will return

Always such a sober reflection.

Fastforward to after service and being slightly irritated with church members who block the drive way entrance because they came late BUT SOMEHOW DECIDE TO SOCIALIZE AND BLOCK EVERYONE ELSE. Very Unfair! Sad!

Anyway

I popped in to see one of my old friends, we caught up about how I am, how I have been, how he has been.
And it was just easy to talk to someone who I had known for ages and just basically have a no air conversation.

Anyway today he sends me a message just a general thanks for coming, it was good to see you, do not be a stranger type message. I reply with one giant heart beating emoticon. ( Love that function on whatsapp)

His response:

"Like I said, don't ever for one second, look back and think u dulled it some where or u made the wrong moves, or you didn't put in enough effort...... bullshit Bants. That was not ur road to walk..."

It warmed my heart.
That was not your road to walk.

One of the things I asked for this year/lent from God was clarity.

And maybe it is time I start to listen.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Because I'm super extra

And I like to keep  breadcrumbs of my awesomeness of the interwebs

And because I can't send my real life people back here

And because lent is my favorite season...


I created a new blog for my 40 notes in 40 days lent activity.

Lenten Letters

It is a new wix blog and I am so excited about it.

Hopefully I finish strong, and hopefully one of you reading this gets a delightful little note from me.

But if you do not, feel free to use the contact page on THAT blog to send me a note

or even better a delivery note for my favorite case of moscato  a link to your own 40 notes.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

List 8: Your favorite Quote

I have a few that may include bible passages but my current favorites now:

Because people think the world ends, but if you fall in, you sprout wings and fly- I swear


Self explanatory


New lesson. I'm taking down walls. 


This quote is very personal for me, and it really made me believe that God is constantly speaking to us, but we may not be listening.
A week into the new year, just after I came across the bible verse thread that is my pinned tweet
I saw this.
And somehow, it gave me peace.


This, I have always believed in. I know that when I start taking steps towards a goal, everything falls into place for me. 
I am highly favored by God and Man but the universe works overtime for me.
ALL THE TIME.
I hope I thank it sufficiently.


Obligatory SATC (Sex and the city) quote.
I remember in 2014, my friend T moved to London for 6 months and I went to help him settle into his apartment but turned out it was Feb 15 so I made dinner, bought a bottle of moscato
and I watched SATC while prancing around in his apartment breaking into shoes he brought me without the boxes from DSW.
This episode was on, and we were both so blown away when we heard the quote.
Ps: T I miss you. come home already. Ah!
I Love SATC. 
And I have also given up on having only 4 close friends that like each other enough to brunch often.


This is the bible passage I spoke about earlier.
As I said God is constantly speaking- we need to start listening.
Well I need to.
I do not think I need to go into how I stumbled upon this bible passage but I assure you all that 2017 is the year of new things.


Non Photo Quotes:

" And if she follow me go na enjoyment go kill am" - Runtown

If you call me, invite me anywhere, ask me to pop in to an event, I will ask you 
" is enjoyment sure to kill me?"

If you stammer, I'm not showing up. 
Life is too short for half assed waka that can not guarantee enjoyment killing me if I participate.

And in the usual manner of these things, the Universe is working over time to ensure that enjoyment is an advanced warfare weapon. Trying and somehow failing everytime.

One time I was having a conversation about how I could never get tired of being waited on, my friend D, said to me 
" Your case is special, you are like the last child from a long line of last children, patented pampering"

And that cracked me up because I really like to enjoy myself.

Keeping in theme of enjoyment, my uncle keeps telling us
 " E better make belle burst than for food to waste"

He says this a lot, and because of his background I can see why it makes so much sense for him.
Even though I do not really always agree with it, I have always liked it
It gives me an escape when I'm being greedy.

Another Quote I swear by, which I have been coming across more and more and is the  only way to get financially free quickly " Spend less than you earn, increase the gap and invest the gap"

Everything else is a spin off, the foundation remains the same.
And as an enjoyment ministress you know how hard I need to work. But I'm getting there,onward and upwards really!


And finally- Efe from BBN has put this in my mouth 

"BASED ON LOGISTICS!"

As you all know I love pidgin english and Efe and Ese gladdened my heart.

Anyway these are a few of my favorite quotes, for now

Not list related but real life update:

 I got the best deal on a kamokini swim suit.

I have wanted one for ages, so imagine my excitement when I scored the sweet deal.

Plus it flattered flatters my body so much.

So pleased.
And I swear I morphed into a Swan- based on logistics.




Friday, February 24, 2017

You Guysssss

So why was I minding my business with my fine self.

and I just realized the worst thing.

Youuuu guysssssss-

I have a crush on a yoruba boy.

I knowwwwww

I am just dying from the realization.

So off course I goggle him.

AND


You already know I want to eat your Kpomo
and the flesh on your body is brokoto.


I know I am still ashamed.

Of my  fine self.


Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Trusting

I miss  having a bath tub.

When I moved out of my mother's house, she somehow decided that a bath tub won't be relevant in the guest room and changed it to a standing shower.

I moved back home and I miss my bathtub so so so much.

Like urgh.

I miss just lying there and reading and drinking moscato.

Speaking of moscato- I have a bottle of my new favorite that I can no longer afford because the price has doubled and I could barely afford it before anyways.

If anyone feels like sending me a crate- Please click contact me and send me a message.

I'm looking for a way to remind myself consistently that God will go above and beyond and break protocol for me because it's something that ALWAYS. always always happens when I ask him for something.

He somehow finds a way to make sure I have what I need.

So why am I so worried this time?

Case in point: My Ticket for my next holiday- sorted at half the price; I can not actually believe it till now.

My  dupe fragrance I stumbled upon without stress.

I had an issue with remuneration at my new place, ANDDD it got sorted. a lot easier than I anticipated. and I say this as a lot easier because I had spoken to staff at they were like ah, management can take time for things like this ehn. Like 5 months.

LOL In 5 days It got sorted.

All of this in February so why am I stressed about this small issue?

Because I'm crazy obviously.

Going back to read my thread of good things on Twitter to remind myself. :)

Monday, February 20, 2017

7: List all the people who brighten your day

Ah.
Considering the weekend I just had.

My family brightens my day
Sister & Brother ( drive me crazy but brighten it none theless)

My mum - She makes my nights so brights, she is practically my day!

Recently-

 My new coworkers who sit opposite me

My new employer who pays me on time

My new printer who has not stressed me since we joined forces

My Nail guy ( but he has moved to a store in lekki now, I just tire)

Ese on Big Brother Naija

Tboss on Big Brother Naija

Aunty Joy and her babies- I love them so much.

-This is not a person but - Asos deliveries!!!!

My friends including but not limited to ... Actually not listing names, if you brighten my day you already know yourself.


I hosted my usual Valentines dinner thing and I am so filled with joy at how much excitement these things hold for me.

Even though I had little sleep- It was perfect still.


In the usual way of the Universe coming through for me- I got a bottle of my favorite moscato.

Color me pleased.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

I'm envious of you

And I'm sure your friends are jealous of you.

Me: Huh?

There is nothing to envy here, I say and laugh and mean every single word of it.

You are always travelling and you seem to always have your life in order.

I would normally Bullshit and bloody fool everyone and say something like- Yeah some of us have it all ( and I'm sure to some extent we do, BUT)- My life is in order for the most part because I'm a self pronounced penny pincher.

My sister says I do not like spending money, I told her I like spending money as long as it is in my budget.

If you want to be a baller like the way people think I am- MAKE  A BUDGET AND STICK TO IT.

And I'm talking about the small things as well. if you withdraw N2k, you must be able to account for how your 2k was spent.

I know plenty work, BUT when you know how your money is going- you know how to manage it better.

Your nails are always done your hair is always looking put together- I want to become a babe.

Spend sunday nights picking out your outfits for the week. If you are not sure how it looks, do consultations via whatsapp/facetime with trusted girlfriends.

Pick out a day to sort out your nails or hair. wear hairnet to sleep. Do your nails using gel and go once in 4 weeks.

I need more clothes- No you need only staples, if anything you need less clothes.

well I know I do- so why am I still buying clothes? (buying is a weakness)- quick shout out to my Asos delivery that came on vals day!

Two new work dresses that make me look like I'm married to money.

I think there is a lot of work put it to get myself into a position that looks like life is dandy and flawless.

And I think the time has come to put aside- It is the grace of God, and start talking about the physical acts I take + the grace of God to get to the point where anyone in their right minds start to think that I have a life that is worthy of their envy.

side bar: My new employers are about to find out my spirit name is wahala and my confrontational skills are really really really magic.

I Lowkey love it.

Have I discussed travel plans on the blog this year?

Quick run down:

 March: Jos
April:  Calabar
May/June: Miami and *Guess what other two countries I'm going to?*

I'm let to conclude what my plans are for the later period of the year, but I know that Kajuru has to click this year and maybe Yankari and definately Zanzibar for my birthday this year.

My love for love waxes more and more each day and attempts to peak on valentines day, but keeps growing, I love it.

I have a thread of all the good things that have happened to me between yesterday & today. I won two give aways related to valentines day.

One for a friend and the other one for me and myself and my future dynasty.

After work today I popped into the Nike art gallery in Lagos.

I am in awe of how much work Mama Nike put into the place.

I would be going back to buy work of some artists from there. When I was done speaking to her and looking around we sat and had tea and I was like wow.

I can not wait till I find what I am so passionate about.

Also came home to a box of strawberries.

I KNOW. I'm thankful for people in my life who have these hands and show these workings.

Googling strawberry recipes non stop but for now a smoothie will do.

Also as a post script: I am delightfully happy.





Monday, February 13, 2017

List 6: List the ways you love to have fun.

LOL. This is so apt because with the way my life is right now.

I'm about to use enjoyment to kill myself ala Run town.

Oh how I love to have fun... Let me count the ways

- Reading a book
-Hanging out with friends
-Going out to eat
-Travelling
-Boxing
-Salsa Dancing
-Making Money
-Buying Gifts
-Buying Clothes
-Just generally buying things
-Sharing my music
-Having the people I share my music with like it
-Spa trips
-Manicure
-Pedicure
- Beach days in the middle of the week
-Beach days on the weekend
-Writing about the things I like
-Writing about the things I do not like
-Shopping (not to be confused with buying things)
-Helping people provide solutions for their problems
-Lagos Weddings
-Destination Weddings
-All Weddings

I used to Love partying. and I used to have so much fun with it.

But now, hmnnn.

This year is really constantly my year of full time enjoyment.

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Spenders anonymous

Please can someone smack my card out of my hand the next time I turn it around to get my CCV number?

Can I just stop buying please?

Because I do not have a clothing allowance for February today is 9/2/2017 and I have exceeded my monthly fuel budget shopping.

Between Asos *hangs head in shame* and my newest guilty pleasure Msbeefab I am going out of commission.

For real, plus she is uber affordable.

I am always crying because Alaroro BUT you guys- she is fair.

And you know how lagos designers walk around with Pistols like armed robbers.

Ps: I was not shopping like this o.

Next thing, something I was saving for fell thorough, and two other things came up.

So now I get to do a lot more Nigeria travel.

Am I pleased - Yes
Will I stop buying clothes?

A girl can only dream.

Ps: I think I am beginning to understand my body.

I had candy 3 days straight ( like 5 milkcose, 4 baba blue etc daily) like that for 3 days.- In my defence, I am in training.

And I'm finding that IT stuff is really just urgh.

Anyway I have 3 pimples now. I haven't had 3 pimples at the same time since maybe October last year.

Okay body none of that sugar.

I hear you.

Valentines day is comingggggg!

Slight trepidation along with minor excitement mixed with the certainty of being a roasto, defines exactly how I feel about valentines.

what I am undecided about if I should host a valentines day dinner / brunch/ hang out I always always  always host irrespective of where I am?

Meh- Time will tell.




Monday, February 6, 2017

Magnet Thatcher

While we drove back to the saloon- I really since he was in the passenger seat,
He offered commentary about Lagos driving,
It is like madness, he complained.
"Meh" I replied, while squeezing yet again into another impossible slot.
He shook his head
I shrugged " What? every driver is mad in Lagos during rush hour"

We eventually got back to the saloon, and the parking attendant indicated to an empty slot.

"You can not possibly fit in there" he said incredulously
I laughed. I live in Lagos, off course I could fit in.
Instead of arguing.
I parked seamlessly in the empty slot.

I put the gear on park and turned to look at him, gloating.

"I like you" he blurted out.

 "because I parked in the space?"

" I'm serious I like you."

" Okay, lets go and sort out our nails"

My friend said I am a damn magnet when it comes to men and christened me "Magnet Thatcher".

With the way 2017 is going, I hate that I might have to agree with him.



Sunday, February 5, 2017

list 5: list what you would like your life to look like 10 years from now

1- I will not work on Wednesdays. This  translates to a 4 day work week.
2- On Wednesday's I  wake up at 5 am and meditate for 30 minutes
3- And swim 10 laps in my pool.
4- I  continue to travel to 3 new countries every year.
5- I dance salsa twice a week
6- I will have reprinted my book twice and eventually do a special 10th year anniversary edition
7- I will put up an art exhibition of all the photos I took in the last 5 years of things I find fascinating.
8- I would have had two children, and my husband will always do school runs
9- Once a week will be date night with my husband and it would always be a laugh fest
10- Sex 4 times a week (because why not?)
11- My nail polish line would be doing amazing numbers.
12- The church I attend will let me teach Sunday school class.
13- Sunday afternoons will entail huge family brunches ( my friends and thier families) that last till 5pm and my cook will complain every week but secretly love it.
14- I will look back at being 28 and laugh at how all the problems I thought I had were real problems
15- I will emit happiness from every pore of my skin.


Ps: every week I'm putting up a list
I have no idea how long I will keep at it, but I plan to put up a list for the next 52 weeks.
You guys 2017 is truly my year.
I feel like God called me to the corner and gave me expo before I entered the year.
See blessings on every side.
I'm in awe and I'm equal parts just amazed at how much God loves me.
I promise I will go into details.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

update

I cut my hair.
Then braided it.

I attempted a new bout of whole 30. But Drinking alcohol keeps hindering my glo up.

I think my other rapper (who also moonlights as my 1 am flex) has lines about me in his new song- It's cute.

I think I should be mellow and reflecting and generally chill, but some how you guys, the universe has presented me with so many opportunities that I'm just like WOW.

I like my new job. (I think- It is a shit load of learning but I love it.)

Plus I have finally got a place where people call me Didi without asking.

I have some news I am bursting from the seams to share- But I'm like too soon?

But I just want you all to know that God is not sleeping, He knows the end of the matter, and believe me when I say the end is so beautiful & glorious & a million times raised to infinity better than what your imagination could have even  attempted to dream off.

At the beginning of the year, I was so confused, so much noise in my ears, so much static in my silent days, and my lord, waaay tooo many tears.

BUT, I went to church and simply asked for clarity.

It was clear no one who I was listening to knew what the best thing for me was, and I was honestly tired of having one conversation 10 million times.

In the word of Drake- I don't want to hear about it ever again.- Truly

So I told God, that in 2017, I was not going it alone.

I would literally inquire from you before I make any step. The way David inquired...

And I needed silence to hear God. Because there was just so much uncertainty.

BUT January came with blessings, It came with clarity and even more than those- January came with a peace that has been eluding me for sometime now.

And the peace was perfect.

And then joy and happiness and everything started falling into place.

I know I'm rambling.

But I need you people to realize that God has the answers to our prayers before we even know that this may be a problem that we have and we need to pray for it.

at the end of every day I think about how lucky I am.

and how people do not have to look too far to see how God works.

God also built me my tribe in 2016. I'm not naming names *side eyes Uber CEO*, but you know yourselves.

But Quick tribe member and Yorubae.

Happy Birthday my darling Deji. I read the christmas message you send me occassionally and I remind myself how lucky I am to have you in my life. Truly.

I wish you so much love and happiness.

January was so full of joy and happiness and sauce.
February I plan to spend so steeped in gratitude for the little things. and the big things and the impossible things he plans to do for me

Can't wait.

I plan to do a weekly series I pulled the list from twitter.

I hope I stick through to the end sha.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Hair

Slighty excited and nervous about new job.

Also what to wear on first day AND what to do to my hair!!!

Keep my hair cut. Tweak it a bit OR,

Get braids

Or get an actual pixie cut.

Plus I let someone use my card and now, complications on charges.

Truly getting tired of being a good person.

Also forgetting to protect myself more.

February will come and I will do better.

All in all freaking excited! 🎉🎉🎉

Still haven't drawn up my budget for the year and month but  ok.

Maybe after next week.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Prayer

and small fasting ( because they go hand in hannnnd)

But ( OMG I am so over talking about this because I swear I sound like a broken record), but
Brcxause of how much I prayed for this one thing last year, I sort of didn't appreciate how flipping perfect my life actually was.

Today is drafting my 2017 themes ( shout out to sisi on a budget for the road map) and the themes just show me how actually pleasant 2016 really was.

New job= more money.
I have more and more clothes to give away= which means I went and bought more in 2016 ( still giving them out)

Also I'm yet to curate my capsule for my new job, I don't know If I want to be all short dresses OR just generally pretend when I get there then show my true colors after 6 months with my short dresses,

What I really wanted to ask/ write about when I typed in that title is how to go from praying for one thing so desperately and getting a No, to just getting back into prayer generally.

I might sound showoff-y but y'all read my blog so you aren't surprised but- bad things generally don't happen to me.

So yah.

Anyway please send me your prayer requests so I can have something to pray about?

Because I hate how lackluster I am about having something to really depend on God for.

And because one of the themes I want in 2017 is that whole " And David inquired of the lord " stance   Before I take any steps towards any thing.

I'm going to want to be like God- how do we feel ( we bring you obv) about this step? Is this a Yay or a Nay? Or a wait you aren't ready.

I guess what I'm really really asking is how to find my way back to praying and hearing from God as easily as I did when I was fasting and praying nOn stop in 2016, now that I have nothing to fast and pray non stop about?

Hint: I know the answer is to fast and pray.

But when I start to pray, I have nothing to say.

Help.

No really  send me an email if you know how to combat this. It's 2017 and I'm not interested in taking any L's this year so please ehn.

Hit that contact me button and let loose if you are shy to comment.

Also I promise I don't bite.

( sometimes )

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