Slippers

Sometimes, I get a timely reminder that the hand of God is resident in all my affairs.

I had instituted a clothing budget this year for two reasons, I am always buying and I have two weddings that I know are likely to stress me financially.

Anyway I needed tan slippers. The Zara ones that are a dupe of the YSL ones.

You know the one. I use the term needed loosely. I just wanted them because they matched my tan Zara purse and it just worked.

Anyway fastforward to friday I began actively looking for them. asking the personal shoppers, sending out screenshots to people who are "coming back" that sort of thing.

I sha didn't find anyone. saturday I asked around again. but was like meh.

Sunday went to church and went to my girls introduction.

Was now telling my other big footed homegirl how I wanted them but can't find who is coming back, and she so flippantly asks me if I want them in black?

I'm like huh?

She is like yeah I have a black pair in my trunk, bought them but they run small- you can have them.

I'm like Okay God, I hear you.
I have been having a little power tussle with God lately about a bunch of things, so little reminders like this are always welcome.

:)

Gratitude

I have been so wrapped up in my self that I have forgotten all the good amazing beautiful things that have happened to me.

I am here sitting at my desk in my hotel taking a break from work to count my blessings one by one

and they are so damn many.

I/m just putting this here as a reminder when I want to complain about how much I hate  what my life looks like.

That It was much worse and it got better and would get so much better.

Looking back and now facing front-  There is so much to be thankful for.

#mp Pass you by- Black magic.

Good God.

b-ismi-llāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīmi

In the Name of Allah, the most merciful, the most Beneficent.

Merciful: adj: To show mercy. To be compassionate.

Mercy:
1. Compassionate treatment, especially of those under one's power; clemency.
2. A disposition to be kind and forgiving: a heart full of mercy. 
3. Something for which to be thankful; a blessing: It was a mercy that no one was hurt.
4. Alleviation of distress; relief

Beneficent: adj:  Characterized by or performing acts of kindness or charity. 
Doing good or causing good to be done 
Generous or doing good.
Resulting in good.

Al-rahmani Al rahim.

Has become one of my favorite phrases.

I do not know much about Islam, but during ramadan, I took time out to search out the meaning of that phrase.

And I fell in love with it.

The Muslims say every prayer in the name of a God, who is merciful and compassionate to the children under him and a God who always causes good to be done.

I find it intricately beautiful.

That even though I am unworthy, the God I pray to is making sure everything is good for me- the most

I totally understand why the Muslims take prayer, seriously.

Because I would if I knew the person I was asking for anything is my corner the most, I would be talking to him all the time.

Bismillah Al'Rahman Al'Rahim

Seeking the face of God

I admit. I am super lucky.

I am that one person who everything seems to work out for right on time.

For instance- I booked a ticket to london for the 28th of march before I even knew what my time table looked like. and my last exam was on that day and I was able to shift my flight and stuff.

Or like today. when I as looking for a travelling bag and I saw this delicious bag in Oasis. - sidebar I never go to oasis, its waaay to expensive and the clothes are a bit too prim and proper for me-

anyways so I was just passing through and I saw this bag. and it was discounted by over 50%.

Offcourse I bought it. even better- I got a free chocolate with my purchase.

God looks out for me. And not because I am a better person than everyone else but because he is an amazing God.

I mean everything seems to have worked out perfectly for me here. I found a cheap ticket to london stress free.

I am able to help the people around me without strain.

I am finally understanding what it is to walk with God. When you seek the face of God- everything works out for your own good.

When something happens to me-I am not flustered again. I just say God yeah over to you and I move onto the next one abeg. NO TIME for worry lines.

My point is this. Seek the face of God constantly. I mean no one gets its perfect but with God you get full marks for trying. Trust me - I know this.

My life is evidence.

The weekend is HEREEEEE!

Nothing really to be excited about.

Work starts by 6am tomorrow. Yes the wretched client wants us to come in before environmental.

This is why I need to marry a rich man like yesterday. So that all these extra rubbish will end.

Hian. Tonight is Lizzy's birthday! She is my Lovers neighbors wife and is having a party. guess who got invited?

But down side is the fact that I have this free ticket to see a free movie at GDC.

Being the miserly soul that I am, I decided to wait till Think like a man came out.

Then realised that I had to wait a 2nd week till it became an old movie to qualify to be watched with a free ticket.

30 of june this free ticket expires.

Here in lies my dilemma, I'm stuck with going to watch my movie, or attending Liz's party.

I have  a love/hate relationship with the Lovers new job. As always he is a super star at work.

Or so he says- Imma have to ask Tori-Tee, they have started bonding.

I also met the cutest Indian at work today. And while I gave him my pin, I imagined me having beautiful mixed race(Indian) daughters that would never have to buy a strand of Indian human hair at exorbitant prices ever.

Alas, this day dream was shattered as he lean in to tell me how much he'd miss me if I didn't come in to work tomorrow. His garlic breath killed me and my beautiful half caste Indian daughter, with her yansh length hair.

Heart broken, I made a mental note to not speak to him again. Alas our Indian bobo had caught jungle fever.
Talking about how he goes out with his friends to Ikeja every Sunday and I- Me Oreoluwa- A whole me, not even half of me should follow him to Ikeja to go clubbing with his Indian friends.

I just laughed. He had to me messing with me. After much deliberation and several mistaken incidents of him grabbing my waist, because I, according to him  almost fell of the ladder twice.


I love male attention, just not from garlicy smelly Indians. Oh and Yoruba boys as well


The other day I was telling the Lover, if i could rid the world of one thing, it would be Yoruba boys.

He thought I was messing around but I'm serious, I detest Yoruba boys with their smelly local swag and what have you.

Anyway the Lover's birthday is next week. I just told my boss, I would be sick next week. Friday, Saturday & Sunday. I will be sick of cake and birthday s...oup.

The older he gets the practical the gifts get- this year I'm getting him something we both can and will use. I can not wait to see his face when he sees it!

Anyway- What are your weekends saying? good loving in the morning rain?

I was going to take my friend to Pattaya for lunch for her birthday- But she isn't speaking to me hence I'm taking the Lover on Sunday. But after work.

I haven't been to a wedding in weeks- I think I may be falling ill.

My favourite Uncle turned 50 this month, and is having a super special 50th birthday parry! I'm so excited, I don't know if to wear oleku ( which is slowly becoming my favorite attire) Legs on Legs on Legsss!

I am so excited for the weekend! Almost as though someone is going to come and visit and drop a million Naira in my laps.

P.s - I think the pre-depression Ore is slowly returning. The Lover thinks its because he said I don't have to buy him anything for his birthday. Apparently I am his everything. *bats lashes*

Gratitude

So today, I remembered how I told myself this year, I would not complain.
But for some amazing reason unknown to me,
I have had ( or so I think) I have had reasons to complain.
From unreasonable deadlines.
To undue workplace pressure
To lord knows what else.

However today. It ends.

So Mr Devil try as you may. This girl is done complaining.

I am going to be thankful. thank you very much.

Why?

Because everything is working out in my favour.

Hard work, that has failed to kill me these past three weeks - have made me stronger

and sharpened my excel/computer skills and for this I am thankful.

I told y'all, no more rants/complaining from this end.

Even this wretched Mestrual pain wrecking my uterus right now,

I'm Thankful I am not with child.

Although 2 years from now. I will be thankful for missing periods.

For now I am glad to be seeing them. and I welcome the pain that accompanies it.

Gratitude all day. Everyday.

By the way I got on the band wagon of the ASOIAF. I am currently on the last available book

ASOIAF = The Game of thrones series in Paper.( its actually the book)

And while I'm not big on i-books, or E anything really. Im thankful because lord knows I wont have been able to lug around 5 big books.

Any way, in the book, there is this phenomenon where people can wear the skins of animals.

They are called wargs. Now this is the same phenomenon I read about in Jss2. in a book called " The bottled leopard" Written by a Chukwuemeka Ike( I think)

So this has me wondering.

Do people actually just wake up and enter the bodies of animals- Because they can?

or its the coincidental imagination of two distinct and different authors from across the globe?

while this doesn't keep me up at night.
I have given it a good amount of thought.

While I am insanely homesick. I am thankful for *gag* Abuja.

This weekend or the next I will take a leisure drive around the town and see what it has to offer.

seeing as my stay here has been extended.

What are you thankful for?

This week and other random happenings.

So the past five days have been amazing.

On monday, i went to work. i also can not remember what i did there, i came home afterwards to lounge with my grandmother.

On tuesday.

I did not go to work. instead i did some random running around AND discovered that GT bank have stopped doing inter bank standing orders- how am i supposed to save now? ehn?

In the evening, The lovers neighbour invited me for his friends surprise party. because the only useful thing i had done all day was go see my students VP, then go to ijora to pick up some things from the motor park, then stop at best in lere to buy sharwama, then drop by at my aunty's house to see her, then go to lagos island to buy the text for my students.

i decided to go, but only after confirming that there would be small chops.

i also realised that because im shy i hate people in intimate gatherings - such as the one i attended.

anyways so i went for the party, saw wey, ate small chops. saw a couple of people.

I was also introduced to the celebrants "girlfriend" - and she retorted " Im his wife not his girlfriend" then i said " actually fiancee, when is the wedding?"

i dont quite grasp when females act as if being with someone is the highest.

anyways back to the party. it was quiet. small gathering of friends and people who came to eat small chops well wishers, such as myself.

Plus there was take away as well.

so i heaped the paper plastic plate and brought some home for my grandma.

On wednesday, i went to work. and went on dealdey.com and spent plenty money. because i was bored out of my mind, and i had nothing to do with my evening, and was nervous as hell about my hearing the next day, i decided to go and eat thai food. so i tweeted about dinner, and my weightloss partner bbm'd me and asked to follow me to din din, i refused but i suggested a movie. i also invited my other friend Asake, (whom i will talk about later) to the movies as well. I also went to ebutemetta after work to see aunty Joy, I urged her to sew my clothes, before she went into labour, she said ok....

so i got home changed, Booskie decided to pick A up which was cool by me. i was buying myself african lit when the showed up.

#sidebar the movie real steel is such an amazing movie. ALSO wolverine, Hugh Jackman is SOFA-KING-HAWT. and that ass. lawwwwd have mercy *fans self*

we sha had fun, it was good company and a goodmovie until the a/c in the cinema caught fire. and we had to run out. but we all came back soon enough.

because i am a self acclaimed "clapper and side commentator" at the cinema i really enjoyed the movie. Dakota Yogo was fucking amazing. that family is just swimming in talent yo. i hope none of them walk down the lindsay lohan route.

i cant wait to buy the dvd and watch it with the lover.

from there went to drop A and we just chilled. and ate rice. and chilled.

On thursday, I went to work and blah blah blah. at 6:30 i called my mum to remind her about my hearing at the club, all the while cursing myself. repeatedly for putting her through that mess.

so i bbm'd her at 6:45 that i was waiting for her- assuming she was coming home to get me first, actually she was already at the club - and there was no parking space.

so i begggggged my baby brother- to drive me over, and in the usual manner of these things, there was insane traffic, followed by an accident on mobolaji johnson. urgh. we sha managed to get there at 6:57.

lets just say there is a God, the hearing went well. and i was advised not to do it again.

i swear i felt like my week couldn't get any better. so i set my alarm for the gym and went to bed, by 4:15 i woke up to pee and saw this message from aunty Joy's husband " Your sis don born"

I screaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmed and called him. he disclosed the sex, " na boy"

how is she? she dey. she will come home tomorrow, me- i will come and see her.

On friday: i went to the gym, then text my boss i wont be coming in to work early, and i didnt bother going again.( tbh i have shut down for the year)

then i went packed goodies for her, stopped over at best ( i swear those guys don wash put for that thing) bought two and went to the hospital.

I swear maternity ward matrons use people to catch the most cruise.

It was so such a beautiful moment. i was like OMG OMG OMG OMG.

AUNTY JOY ACTUALLY HAS A BABY.

Now if anyone has ever been to my house before this year, you would know who aunty Joy is. she practically ran the house and raised us when my mother was away slaving at the hands of 9-5 employment.

and when i saw the baby, so yellow and cute with a full hair of head. i knew God had answered my prayers early.

Fast forward 10 years from now, all the girls that will be flocking to him, i will be using to wash plates in my kitchen. among other things.

Christmas had come early.

I am thankful for small mercies, and big mercies alike.

I also want to apologize to my Friend Asake, who i did not intend to offend, but some how managed to as i promised, i have taken down the post. I'd rather lose readers not as if anyone reads this anyways than a friend.

My grandma leaves tomorrow, i have grown fond of her, but i am glad to see her leave.

Tomorrow i shall resume at aunty Joys house. later make some sweet zobo.

Im also going to see my 1st stage play ever, and im quite excited.

i swear i have so much free time on my hands. Its almost amazing.

ps: am i the only person who avoids people so that i wont mistakenly blurt out shit?

Happy place

I am at a happy place right now.

And it has nothing to do with payday.

It's satisfaction. That can only be derived from self accomplishment.

From something as little as making someone smile.

Or proving someone wrong.

Or letting everything just be in their own lane and you in yours, and waving when being wove (is that a word? Wove?) to.

Basically for someone like me who makes it her sole aim to be the rock for most of my friends - who never show appreciation.

Being in. Happy place is learning that people either friend or foe are generally forgetful and not necessarily ungrateful. I mean some are, but not all.

So I having learned this, I kinda never minded if a friend I was there for somehow managed to never be there for me. Or show appreciation.

However at my friends cook out/pop up restaurant thingy yesterday he was so thankful, and grateful and what not, I was actually surprised.

And I was happy, e en though I had learned that people are generally ungrateful.

His gratitude reminded me that doing good, can make me hAppy.

It's just odd.

That something so small can make me so happy.

It just goes to show how much God must appreciate our thanks.

Makes mental note to say thank you more often. To any and every body

Thanksgiving.

While im fully resident in Nigeria,

And we dont celebrate thanksgiving. there is the need to be thankful.

I remember this time last year i was in Ny for thanks giving and it was beautiful.

My aunt just underwent heart surgery sucessfully, she was able to get someone to look after her kids while in the hospital.

There was so much to be thankful for.

And this year we have a lot more to be thankful for,

for good health, wealth, successes promotions, inductions, Birthdays, lovers quarrels, everything its impossible to count.

But i am thankful, most for myself

This last year i have grown, my Yoruba has become better, my people skills increased, wisdom nko? e don pack come my domot.

this 2011 make i no even talk lie, na me God vex dash this 2011.

If you see as God use me take shine this year ehn?

You sef - wen you carry eye torch lite as God don use me shine wella this year e go hungry you make you come serve this My God.

None the less this year has been amazing- and all Glory is returned to God.

Baba God i say Thank you. i am Thankful.

:)

What are you thankful for?

Homosexuality.

and 4 other things.

not having a bathroom sucks.

what sucks even more, is forgetting you dont have one.

and even more than forgetting is the fact you have to wake up extra early since you are sharing.

too annoying.

BUT im thankful there is a roof over my head.

i really should stop complaining about petty things, makes me seem ungrateful.

and i am grateful.

Anyways on my way out, i saw an article that caught my eye on sunday's paper so i grabbed it

and decided i would read it in traffic.

this bit totally defines my stand on it.

"I have no capacity or justification to hate anybody because he is gay or she is lesbian. After all, am I a better human being simply because I’m not gay? Is sexuality the only standard by which men and women shall be judged? If I’m not gay but do not love my neighbour, does that make me a better human being? Is homosexuality the only thing God hates? Does God love lying, deceit, cheating, stealing, backbiting, treachery, pride, etc etc?"- Simon Kolawole.

you can read the whole article here

http://www.thisdaylive.com/articles/homosexuals-and-the-rest-of-us/102127/

Thankful

This year has been amazing.

I Have so much to be thankful for.

Too much sef.

God has been too good to me.

I have been blessed beyond measure, if i say want to use all the strands of hair on my head as tongues to thank him, best believe it still would not be enough.

Thank you Lord.

You have been too kind. And i am more than thankful.

I get teary eyed, when i have to look back at where God has brought my Family and I from.

We have too much to be thankful.

And father i am thankful.

just thought to share this.

as usual while im at work and looking at countless excel sheet of numbers doing my head in.

ok thats a lie, today ive only looked at one.

i was also surfing the web. this is what i found.

"If you let it, perfectionism will rob you of peace, plus the joy of whatever you’ve accomplished so far. The sportswear manufacturer Fila took out a full-page ad in a newspaper to honour its NBA All-Star spokesman, Grant Hill, and, at the same time, take a swipe at the pressure young people feel today to be perfect. The ad pictures Hill surrounded by this text: ‘This year Grant Hill led his team in scoring, rebounding, assists and steals, led his team back into the playoffs, led the league in All-Star balloting, earned a place on the Olympic team, didn’t punch an official, didn’t demand a contract extension, was never tardy, was always cordial, didn’t dump his high school friends, listened to his mother, remembered the doorman at Christmas, made his bed daily, promised to take shorter showers in an effort to conserve water, got plenty of sleep, didn’t hurt a fly, organised his thoughts, chose paper over plastic, appeared fully clothed in interviews, improved his vocabulary, counted his blessings, said nice things about his teammates, fed coins into other people’s parking meters, kept his thermostat at sixty-eight, practised what he preached, actually paid attention to the stewardess’s emergency flight instructions, donated a kidney – and vowed to do better next year.’ Now, let’s get serious. There will always be areas of your life that need improvement; you will never ‘arrive’. But that doesn’t mean you can’t stop and savour the moment, or celebrate the miles already covered and say to yourself, ‘I’m not all that I should be, but I’m better than I used to be. I’m all right, and I’m on my way.’"

As i turn a year older this year. i say to myself. im not all that i should be, but im waaay better than i used to be. Im VERY alright, and im on my way to becoming who i am going to be.

I get Uber emo when my birthday comes around. *sniff*

Im also a reformed cry baby.

Compliments

My friend A, just sent this to me randomly on bbm today.

" You are a very peculiar woman O. You can imagine how much this irks me( Joking) to say this but you are really awesome ( when you look beyond your great diva-ness- lol). Your (rather expansive) grasp of things around you and your informed appreciation for things from rap to football to politics, makes you a rather unique lady. I'm very proud of you as a friend. I just thought you should know that"

* turns of background violin music*

When people ask me how i can sleep at night being who i am, i should show them this message.

It totally blew me away.

I literally had to rinse my self. this washing was too much.

But thank you A. now if this pride can translate itself into one of the things on my birthday wishlist.

lol jk.

Hi Rihanna.

My birthday wishlist

Amongst other things.

no need to doodle about here, lets get straight to the point shall we?

yes.

1. Ipod speakers.

I'm such a cheap skate, i've wanted these forever and yet i have been unable to buy myself one.

and i'd love to be able to play music loud from my speakerrrrsssss.

when i get one.

2. Earphones.

Preferably skull candy. but i"ll accept beats by dre, panasonic, sony and what not.

I just fucking need earphones.

As usual, the last earphones were a surprise gift.

which i was totally grateful for.

3.Blackberry bold 9900.

I want this. actually make that need.

this phone just reeks of sexy-ness. too sleek.

I love it.

Been combing the internet looking for a cheap one.

and i never comb the internet for gadgets.

4. Body Magic.

yes. you read right. actually in place of this i would take a cheque made out to my personal trainer for 6 months.

5. the boyfriend watch

long. before the era of boyfriend everythings, blazers, jeans. and waistcoats and shit.

i've always wanted the boyfriend toy watch

its actually my display picture on here. i love it.

6. Wii controllers in Red

Along with Mario kart, just dance and the Michael jackson this is it games. i got my console from the UK so im not too sure, if its NTSC or PAL? but just ask before you buy it.

actually i just want one controller. and it must have the added senstivity bit at the bottom. ( dont remember what its called)

7. Mac cosmetics

Im really dark, so eyeshadow, blush and powder in the range of someone who uses NW45 powder.

8. Pure gold jewellery.

( that spelling of jewellery looks a bit off)

i want white gold plain neck lace. and bracelet.

i also want a yellow gold neck and belly chain interconnected chain.- saw it in one rihanna picture. it looked stunning.

9.A carton of Alize.

I like to drink- socially offcourse, and i like to drink alize. both socially AND anti-socially. ( if that is the opposite of socially). so i want a carton that i can drink when ive had a bad day.

i would also accept a half a carton of Red muscadel and 5 bottles of Cafe patron in case of the carton.

10.Round trip ticket to firenze, dubai, NY, Londres.

i think that last bit was self explanatory. would use any airline asides "air afriquyah"

that airline is what the devil uses to bring the souls that he was won drown from earth to the bottom-less pit of hell.

side bar- i have missed blogging, so much has happened in these past 2 weeks, swift networks didnt allow me share.

would talk about them later.

OH MY BIRTHDAY IS NOVEMBER 2ND.

i just realized i didnt say the date.

Thankful

i have too much to be thankful for.

i didn't grow up rich. i grew up well below comfortable.

when my parents split. my mother was a house wife, unemployed with 3 kids to look after.

only the lord in heaven could have looked after us. and he did.

he truly looks after his own.

today or rather last week, i had 2 sort out clothes to give out. because i own too many clothes.

i remember when we did not have enough clothes.

there is just so much to be thankful for.

there is this yoruba saying- that someone would take away your mat, not knowing that god is bringing you a rug.

off course my yoruba is poor.

as at last week, i decided to not buy anything i do not need.

luckily for me im not a buyer, but i even need to stop taking stuff from people i dont need.

and i need to be a giver as well.

im adding this to my new years resolution this year.

i mean i have suitcases of stuff i havent even worn.

this is not who i am.

The power of Music.

I've always had this love for music, I believe it has powers. It's all about finding and playing the right song at the right time. Sometimes your shuffle does the magic, other times you are forced to figure it out on your own.
I've known this song (almost) all my life but hearing it that day gave me this inner peace. I felt like the burden I had been carrying was taken from me. I felt sudden relief.
The past year was a crazy one, my sister left, I had endless tests, I had to watch 2 people I love slowly recover from life threatening illnesses, I had to retake an exam that determined the next one year of my life and with all these I was struggling with my emotions and spirituality.
I've always felt a problem shared (with the right person) is a problem half solved so I tried talking to my friends but it seemed like no one could give me a lasting solution, not because they didn't want to but they couldn't figure out what exactly was wrong. I couldn't even figure it out myself. All I knew was the mood swings and tears were endless. Behind d smiles was fear, uncertainty, emptiness. A few times I wanted to pray then I realized I didn't know how. Im sure you are thinking how hard can it be but whenever I tried, my weaknesses were brought before me. I didn't feel worthy to talk to God, I wasn't worthy.
So there I was, sitting in one of my 'I can't remember the exact mood it was this time' and then the song came up. As I sang along I suddenly remembered I had someone all along, someone who knew everything about me, he knew exactly how i felt, he knows me more than I know myself. He knew what I was going through even if I wasn't sure exactly what it was. I had him as a friend, he had been waiting all this time for me to call him. Just when I wanted to call, my weaknesses again were brought before me, then the word came "in my weakness he is made strong". I realized I didn't have to be strong on my own. His strength was available for me. I didn't even have to say much, he could see right into my heart, right behind the tears he knew how much I was hurting, how empty I felt. Then came the assurance. He told me everything will be alright, he had it under control. He that started a good work in my life promised to bring it to a perfect end. Suddenly I felt at peace and since then I got him on my speed dial. What a friend I have in Jesus.


What a friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
And what a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer

Oh, what peace we often forfeit
Oh, what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged
Take it to the Lord in prayer

Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness
Take it to the Lord in prayer








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My friend Eneni wrote this. i'm sure many of us can relate.

Thanking God.

My mothers birthday is on Friday. my sister and I are yet to provide her with grand children.

But it is safe to say we have made her proud. how proud very proud.

and for this i am thankful.

i keep telling people if i turn out to be half the woman my mother is, i would be very happy.

however i find that i am lazy. and she is Hard working. but that is gist for another day.

i am thankful for her life.

i am thankful for my Job

i am thankful for good health

i am thankful for answered prayers

i am thankful for Friends and Family.

i am thankful for the Lover in my Life.

i am thankful for good music.

i am thankful for all of the above and a lot more which i would not blog about.

but as Yinkuslolo said in her blog, this is something i do not do enough, and i should.

so from now, once a month/or week or often sha. i will be thankful to God. in blogpost, tweet, word or deed.

ps. did you know that Nigeria had the 2nd highest HIV infection rate in the world. i believe the 1st remains south africa.

this is very scary news because i know a lot of people that are sexually active. and are rather non-chalantly sexually active.

its scary just thinking about it. the only person i know that had AIDS personally. i didnt even know the person like that, my friends Maid.

anyways please lets refrain from casual sex. if we must, lets be protected.

by protection i mean condoms. because i doubt your baba can help you here.

and i do realize how hypocritical this post may seem. but i honestly do not participate in casual sex. because sex is NEVER casual. dont be deceived.