Self development

I know how I always feel like women have been inherntly taught that there is always something they can do to make them be better- lose weight, fix nails, bleach skin, sorry even out skin stone or whatever.

But trust me when I say despite my constant cries of weight loss I have had no need to attempt to do any major self development.

Me 1.0 was working fine. Anyway I moved here and decided to do something.

You know the thing I have been so excited about and I keep talking about but would not mention?

Yes- *drum roll*

I am learning to play the piano! LOL and taking pole dancing classes.

Now that its out there. Wheeeeeee! I have ALWAYS wanted to do both BUT growing up I did not have time and when I eventually had the time- ICAN came along. Anyway all things work together for your good because I moved here- found time, found a cheap ass tutor and started the classes.

As for pole dancing- It is what I was created for. I mean my knees and my wrists and MY THIGHS!!! are on fire- But it is such an amazing experience that I need to increase my core strength so I can hoist my self up the pole with ease.

Anyways that is pretty much the self development I have been doing- I was also training to run a marathon but since my knee went bust. Yah. Hopefully the 250 rope jumps I did today do not agitate it.

Classes are fine. My braids are fine( although I have been wondering how to wash them? Next weekend maybe? I should youtube how to wash braids without loosing some.

I hope you all have an amazing week! NEXT TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!

Goal setting and divine encouragement

I do not run like a man running aimlessly- 1st Cor 9:26

Back drop.

When I was 12 I had a major surgery to correct a recurrent patella dislocation( which is as a result of your knees not being able to support your body weight) I had been experiencing in my left knee. It healed but left me with a scar that make me so self conscious- I was unable to wear anything that was above my knees.

Off course at 12, I did not finish therapy and I walk with a slight limp. That is fine- I have learned to live with it.

So Last week I decided to run the 5k marathon in Edinburgh. It is on the 13th of October and I decided while searching for a trainer to start intense exercises.

Off to the gym I went!

45 minutes of cardio and then some arm exercises I decided to get some work done on my knees and started doing some knee raises.

It was unusually painful but hey no pain no gain right? anyways I reduced the weight. Finished up and went to  lift weights for my arms and back.

I Finished that got on a mat to do some planks and stretches when I lay down and BOOM.
My knee gave way. I shit you not. blinding pain that was nothing like the pain I used to experience when I was 10 or 11.

Instantly- I just knew that 1- I had pushed myself too hard and 2- I might have lost too much weight.

Because I was ridiculously skinny as a child- I was told by my doctors that I needed to put on some weight and muscle so that my legs could support the rest of my body.

Since I decided to run the marathon, I had changed my eating patterns etc etc etc to healthier options and complex carbs for energy.

Anyway back to the pain. So I turned over and laid there till I stopped seeing stars and could make out the shapes of things around me. and did a couple of stretches.

I felt better after a few so I did some more.
On my way home- I ran into my class mate who I had never told about my gym runs ever- and he said " Ah even with your papers you are still going to the gym? this kind of dedication is serious o. Ah the man that marries you will enjoy with all the attention you you devote to certain things" he also invited me to his church to come for his worldwide communion service. Virtual cookies for anyone who can guess the name of said church.

Trust Nigerians to make EVERYTHING about marriage.
 All I sha took away from that I need to keep at it. Training for my 5k. Literally I feel like if I put my mind to it, my body will eventually co-operate.


Anyways that's that. I have completed my papers! * squeal*

I had no idea that they would turn me into an economics guru. With the help of Lekan obviously. LOL.

He literally had to help me interpret my regressions and tell me what each dependent variable meant. and then spell it out to me repeatedly. Lekan I can not thank you enough.

Anyways now I have to cut down 1k words- any economist that wants to actually look at the paper should get at me. 100 heads are better than one and all that. :)
My literary teacher said my writing has improved a thousand fold- she did not say thousand fold but her eyes said it. :)

hehe.

Have a good week guys!

Phensic

its the name of that drug that used to fight aches and pains.
i was out last night- rather friday night with my friend Asake.

and i was reminded why i dont ever bother with a group of female friends.
it was a good night. danced and danced and danced.
BUT i reminded myself that i was too old to climb the table to dance.

well i had to a couple of times.

it was a fun night. tbh

my darling Debo was there.

so randomly this random boy at the club, just walked up to me and started talking to me.

im like: huh?

like do people still do that? just randomly waltz up to a girl at the club and start chewing her ear off?

saying stuff like " oh you are cute, what are you drinking?" when i am obviously not drinking anything.

but it was a little amusing.

i also realised that the negro thought i knew who he came with- famz gone wrong.

lol. i am a meanie.

Why do people think that marriage is the ultimate for women?

I was having a conversation with Asake's friends, whom all thought i was mad because i said if i got proposed to tomorrow, i would say no.

off course i'd say no. i dont want to be married YET.

i have the rest of my life to get married jo.

they looked at me like i was mad, and one even asked me: " what are you waiting for?"

because i have a job, and everything else has fallen into place the next thing is marriage.

she said that at 30 when all my friends get married, i would be alone. lol.

some females are so small minded, its amusing.

i mean, by all means get married, but dont impose on someone else.

marriage is sacrifice, and commiment and forgiveness and selflessness and all that right now, i am not ready to give.

so forgive me. if the lock on that marriage door changed ages ago, and you are the last to know.

by the way, my core is hurting so bad. :(

Happy birthday Ope. have a fabulala day!