But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this word AND IT IS CERTAIN we can carry nothing out.... (1 Timothy 6:6-7)Emphasis all mineSo I have a party this weekend, Why am I so eager to go and get a new outfit?
because I am not content. I have a shit load of clothes to wear, and I will wear one of the many numerous ones I have. I do not want to buy anything again except it is an absolute neccesity.
I always have this weird power tussle in my mind on spoiling myself and just being plain incontended with what I have.
I mean I draw the line at a certain number of things- which are borderline madness such as buying hair at 100 grand a head- There are children in my village whose mothers will bless you forever if you use that money to pay their fees.
so no while I won't do things that ridiculous, I find myself wanting to spoil myself a little. sometimes more than needed( I admit)
Today my sister saw me naked and said " stop sucking belle" I replied- I am pushing it out.
she squealed " it is a lieeeeeeee, your stomach is vanishing sha" she then got up touched it. asked me to suck belle, proded and just generally exclaimed about how I am so skinny now, my body is lithe enough for italian ball room dancing and I should take up the classes.
Me: No Im only trying to lose some belly fat for the party this weekend and the wedding at month end.
her: you sha look very good- please keep it up.
My face could not contain my smile!
I Love when people compliment my body- surely that must be unhealthy as well.
Dont know and I do not care- I need something to stop me from shopping the way I do.
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