I usually do not care but yesterday I was telling someone how I went to the maket and entered Keke and okada and he was like
*scratch pause* you did what?
Me: went to the market
Him: no not that the other stuff
Me: What other stuff?
Him: the one when you entered keke?
Me: The sun set is so pretty tonight.
I swear I'm fake bougie. If you can even say I am bougie.
I meannnn, I like the finer things (who doesn't?) but I have lived long enough to know that
obtaining the finer things take time, money and these are things I generally haven't lived long enough for and I can't afford.
I mean before I gave up twitter I already mentioned that I planned to buy myself my first Chanel purse to celebrate my 30th and my first child's birthday.
Asides the fact I have re-evaluated the child benchmark; the exchange rate adjusted for inflation with my salary means I have to shift it to 35.
I'm not beating myself up over it.
I agree that I enjoy to be pampered. I like to pamper the people in my life, today my friend said
" You probably make everyone's life easier"
And I think that because I'm one of those " To know me is to love me people", the perceptions that people have do not bother me too much.
But I feel like maybe because I do not wear struggle well, people assume that struggle doesn't exsist or was not a formative part of my life.
It's odd because I don't have those assumptions about me.
I can not even believe that someone will use the term "Spoilt" to describe me.
Yesterday I decided to stop complaining about my new job.
And today I came in at 8:30. Resumption time is 8am and I usually do a 9:20 ish average arrival time.
Change is here.