To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
I have been happy of late. content. free of worry.
Just you know living life. and stopping to smell the flowers ( figuratively)
I have been feeling so blessed, and so deserving of these blessings!
Two weeks ago, I wanted to see a Shrink, because I thought I needed some objectivity in some issues.
Mid life crises at twenty something? Interesting.
So I asked my friend Oyin Pumping, IF she knew any one.- she always has all these people on speed dial.
and she said- why not see a church counsellor?
and I said- I do not think I want to see some one who will offer to pray with me.
and she said " I have learnt this year that there is nothing God can not do"
Interesting abi? I decided to read a bible passage, and pray. some days. I did, some days I didn't.
I continued and I noticed I felt better. I was not so angry any more.
I did not feel the need to be a better person for anyone.
I felt like- I am how God wanted me to be.
I felt free. relieved. at ease, and dare I say happy.
Now I am not a usually "Sad"/ unhappy person, but in these last weeks, I am learning that who I am is not a function of what I own. ( which is why I did not really want presents, I kind of have a lot of stuff)
I mean people may say - you can never have enough clothes.
But how much do you really need any ways?
Anyway I was reading this amazing article and I knew I had to write what I had been up to these past weeks.
You know another thing about being happy. You can share it. It doesn't diminish.
And that is what is so beautiful about it. It is mutually exclusive from every one else's happiness.
I do not know if I am making any sense BUT, I like how I feel.
and since I started feeling this way, only good things have been happening to me.
Is the universe in sync with me? or is it the universe making me happy?
I do not know, but I quite like it.