Friday, November 25, 2016
I'm going to talk about the gift and curse of feeling things a bit too deeply, and how I embraced
Step 1. I read Paulo Cohelo's the way of the bow and the four agreements by Don miguel Ruiz.
Lots of people say it's fluff reading.
But both of them taught me to not take anything personal.
In realising it's not you, Its literally them, there is some form of peace and you find that there is some space in your heart for things that truly matter.
Like cholesterol from the Steak I could have been eating this afternoon if I decided to play truant AND not even come into work today.
But old habits die hard.
Step 2. Read step 1, Drink some red wine and ask your self why?
-why am I so upset?
-What is triggering these emotions that run so deep?
-Do I ever plan to address these issues?
Step 3: Honesty has a way of bringing you peace.
And it gives you ease of mind, I have always always always been a fan of love that is erratic and butterfly filled and just crazy stupid passionately drowning.
Because what else is there to do than to put your heart to work, pumping blood at a rate that feels like your heart will burst?
In as much as I feel the crazyness of the love that is erratic, I can swear to you that you need your head.
even better put pen to paper and write.
Write out what you want AND then tell your heart to do what you want.
Be steeped in it, as an unashamed lover girl, y'all know by now that I'm a lean mean fronting machine.
I stopped fronting. Going all in ensured that I put my back and best into ventures and I was able to pull out when said ventures stopped serving me.
There is literally nothing else to be done.
Your best was not good enough.
And your heart makes peace with that fact and lets you have peace.
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