On life moving forward whether or not we want it to.

 If you have read this blog long enough, you'd know my mother raised me and my siblings.

You'd also know my father has his new family and he did not look after my siblings and I.

My father who I have seen a grand total of maybe 6 times since he left my family randomly when I was 9, is now very ill.

My brother, not my blood brother, but my fathers child from another woman who happens to be older than my sister & we found out about on facebook in 2004 when we went on a family holiday to Atlanta, has been messaging me to update me on the status on his health.

It is so crazy how little there is to life.

How when you make your bed, you have to lie in it.

Honestly I did not think I cared so much about my father, till I felt tears prickle behind my eyes listening to the voice note my brother sent about his situation.

Ah well.

What I am deciding to learn in 2022

 is to receive things that come easily.

I'm working on a mindset shift from working tooth and nail ( which is not a bad thing o), it is just that I am enjoying significantly the restful state of having things done for me and being able to receive them with a clear mind instead of thinking of how to repay the person.

The thought that if someone does something for you, you MUST repay them is absurd, because the world is the world and who knows what channels you had given into that will bring you the blessings you seek?

Pre-empting learning to receive comes with letting God have the final say and for someone who is a proclaimed go getting self starting hardworking do it myself babe, it has not been as easy as I anticipated to let go of the reins, but the ease. WHEWWWWW.

Also I'm learning to receive assistance from people who I have once helped and want to give me something in return, prior I'd have brushed it off but now I'm like - why yes you can.

I have really enjoyed a life that has been relatively easy but lately these last few weeks have me really considering a deeper rest.

Intense receiving from the universe

inspecting and observing and really interrogating my relationship with certain things and actually deciding and believing that all the things I desire are necessities not just add on, and that all the things are available to me.

That being said I am really looking forward to receiving big things in 2022!

Lent 2022

 One thing that heralds lent is the end of Carnival. 

I know, I know.

Carnival is back in 2023 and I am very excited. Be that as it may, lent is here now and for the 40 odd days I have grand plans.

The most important is to watch what I say, while I have always been positive generally I am now even more committed to saying only the best things about myself.

I am finding that the more I speak positively about myself and my life, the better it gets.

The second thing I am committing to this lent is to speak positively about everyone I encounter, my hope is that God continues to give me the grace to do this

The 3rd thing I am committing to is heavily visioning of what I want my life to look like in the near future. It is great now, but I am aiming for exceedingly and abundantly more that is perfect for me.

For by your words you shall be justified, and by your words you shall be condemned- Matt 12:37

I will medidate on a couple of bible verses through out this lenten season and by the end of the period I should have a solid sheet of affirmations culled from the exercise.

I am learning to be specific in my desires and I am very happy with the out come.

Happy Ash Wednesday.