One of the reasons I decided to become celibate was because I had noticed a trend of waning interest in men who are absolutely shaking me, after I have sex with them.
And I absolutely wanted to will myself to follow through.
Anyway. fastforward to my meeting my hot date.
and sleeping with him after one two many sleep overs.
I don't think I like him anymore.
Yall- this man was shacking the fuck out of me.
I can't put my finger on what has changed.
I remember telling Yorubae that honestly the thought of getting married never crossed my mind till his ass rotated into my orbit.
So I fuck him a couple of times, and I'm like- meh
I am so lukewarm, he keeps asking me what is wrong and I'm like - oops.
Like when I'm with him we still have a good time, but once I leave, LOL.
it's almost like out of sight and out of mind.
And yall he is a GREAT guy. Like fantastic by all ramifications. If I made a list, minus his lack of a foreign passport, He'd check a good number of boxes.
But yet- I'm irritated by him. Sometimes.
Case in point, he was sick sick and didn't go to work, and yall I was like oh, get yourself to the Hospital.
He didn't and I was like okay cool.
didn't offer to send him food, didn't ask what drugs do you need. Nothing
and I didn't feel a type of way.
Is this madness?
I'm equal parts confused, equal parts amused.
I feel like I know I shouldn't have fucked him.
I really enjoyed how light headed he made me and now I'm back to earth, I'm like eek.
1 comment:
I was just going to ask about him the other day.
In my opinion i think it's good how you got the fucking out of the way because you could have put it off and then eventually felt this same way whenever it did happen.
Also, might could be there's something he's not doing right because i think that if he was literally blowing your back out, there wouldn't even be room for out of sight out of mind.
But that's just my own opinion.
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