Urgh

You ever feel like you might have bitten off more than you can chew?

I love learning, I hate not knowing.

I decided early this year to write professional exams to faciliate my move into a new career path.

this meant two things- Bye bye to baby girl living

Spending all my savings on this exam

All my free time spent studying and taking classes

and the best one- learning from scratch because you decided to chart a new course in your life.

And I am overwhelmed.

Fully

But I know how uncomfortable my life currently is and how much better it can be if I moved houses at least over the weekend so I'm not struggling/dying in traffic daily when I use that time to be studying.

Anyway what this means is that I may have to move houses.

But I've used rent money to write the exams.

At the risk of sounding like a whiner.

I'm tayadddd.

But at the same time excited in class.

It's the strangest thing really.

People keep asking why do you want to do this and what if you don't like it.

LOL at this point I have two PHD's in starting over.

That's what I will do. start over if I hate it.
The end.

For now, send me prayers.

Coincidence

So.

on Sunday night I was scrolling through twitter when I saw a writer asking people to please buy his book.
so I go on kindle read a sample, I like it and I hadn't really read any gay chick lit.
so I bought it.

and didn't get any debit alerts on any of my bank cards.
I'm like hmmn will check this out.

I finish the book and decide to use my laptop to look through some more titles in the same vein, to see the ones to buy.

I see a few.
I buy one, it gets delivered to my kindle instantly but I get no debit alerts.

Strange.

I check the payment tab on my amazon account.
Turns out Eros's card is still linked to my amazon account.

I buy books until I get an email from amazon talking about there is an issue on my last order regarding my payment method aka. insufficient funds.

Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. Idc idc.

So I'm telling my friend and she is like wow- you are wild. what if he finds out?
me: How is he going to find out?
her: You bought books- that's how he is going to find out.
me: shrugs.

I don't care tbh.

also how apt that valentines day is on ash Wednesday?

Exceprts

"I enjoy you"

You'll get tired of me soon. I should ration myself  so I can seem more interesting for longer.

You worry about the wrong things.